Tuesday, January 8, 2013

A Small Sort of Despair

Every so often, a wave of perfectionism will sweep over me.  Since college, I have learned to roll with "it" (whatever "it" may be at the time) and ride out the waves in collectedness.  Yet sometimes I find myself reverting to my own ways.  The ways where I think that I control every outcome.  Where I determine whether my life has been successful thus far.  Where I wish to mold myself into some sort of Super Woman with the ability to be ridiculously fantastic/successful.

Shortly after finishing Divergent, I was astounded to learn the author wrote the book when she was 24 years of age.  TWENTY FOUR!  I realize that I am not 24 (yet), nevertheless, a strong feeling of inadequacy overwhelmed me.  What have I done so far?  Better yet, what am I doing?  I assure you that I am not writing the next great dystopian novel.  Playing BINGO with seventh graders is more like it.

But I guess part of being a teacher is remembering the lasting effects you can have on any child at any moment.  Perhaps one of my seventh graders will remember my lesson on literary devices as he/she writes a celebrated novel.  That would be pretty fantastic.

P.S. Please read Divergent.  It's a little on The Hunger Games side, but more mature, and a teensy tiny bit more "cool."  Whatever I mean by that.

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