I've never been that good at surprises. I like to know things, especially wonderful things, before they are scheduled to happen. And while this frustrates some people, the anxiety is sometimes overwhelming if I know a surprise is coming.
This week has been full of surprises, some good and some bad. And as I try to place myself in every situation, I find that I cannot foresee how I would react. How I would feel and what I would think. And for now, it's ok. But I pray for those people, and I know God's plan is the best plan.
But even more surprising is what I do know. As I mentally prepare myself to leave and settle in Alabama, I'm surprised by the attachment I hold to the place I currently call home. I am attempting to take avantage of the time left here, but I find myself shutting down before it's time to say goodbye. I feel that is a natural reaction, but it's tough all the same. The thought of serving in a community this June where my heart is not is frustrating and makes me angry. I want to have my whole self in my neighborhood because I will soon be gone. And I never thought I would be so happy where I am. It's amazing how God knows what we need, when we need it.
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